comment tout a commencé
(french);
how it all started
I remembered how it all started. But then again, how could I forgot? It was probably one of the days I ever felt genuinely happy. I believe I've never felt that happy before. A couple of words that came out from your mouth, changed my life forever. There's no going back. This is really happening.
I remembered that day in the hospital. How could I forgot that day? That day when you suddenly came to me, when we were both in your car. Neither of us was saying anything. It was a total silence. Yet, a comfortable one. Then you asked me that question I was waiting for you to ask me. I was scared, yet I was happy.
'how do you feel about me?'
How do I feel about you? You made me so happy, you made me feel so special. You made me feel like I was the only girl in the world. Never has anyone treated me like you do. The most important thing, you taught me how to love. How do I feel about you? I guess I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you.
Well, no. Of course I didn't answer it like that. I was so overjoyed, my heart was pounding in my chest. The only words I managed to say was,
'i feel special about you.'
And then I saw your relieved smile. Probably the best view that I've ever seen that time. You smiled to me and you said.
'me too. i'm falling for you.'
That was it. I felt like the happiest girl in the world. How happy could you be finding out that the one that you love the most felt the same way? It was everybody's dream. And mine actually came true that day. My eyes watered and tears threatened to fall. I was crying out of joy. I was so happy.
We spend the night listening to a song that to this day, still reminds me of you. We were holding each other in our arms after we professed our love to each other. I came home feeling really joyous and I still kept pinching myself to prove that this is real and not some nice dream. I know that being with you wasn't that easy. In fact, it was a challenge. You chose me over 'her'. Her as in my good friend. Was I so blinded that I even risked my friendship just for you?
Yes.
I was completely head over heels for you and I would do anything for you. Even if it means breaking my friendship. I risked everything I had for you. Thinking that it was all worth it because I love you so much. I hate to say that looking back from now, it was all such a waste. I was completely blinded by your love. I loved you too much, I didn't even loved myself. I lost my some of my friends, friendships were broken. Yet, I still managed to thought that all of it was worth it.
But one day, you suddenly changed.
It happened so fast.
I didn't know what went wrong.
You just...
fell out of love.
And here I am...
Broken,
trying to fix the pieces you left me with
Was it all worth it?
